a must read: September 2012

Monday, September 24, 2012

MOM

♥ ♥At age 4: Mom knows everything! At age 8: Mom knows a lot! At age 12: Mom really doesn't know everything. At age 14: Mom doesn't know a thing! At age 16: Mom who? At 18: that's old school. At 25: maybe Mom knows about this. At 35: let's ask Mom before deciding. At 45: I wonder what Mom ...would say about this. At 75: I wish I could as...k Mom about this. RE-POST THIS IF YOU HAVE A GOOD MOM. I Love you, Mom. ♥

My Internal Confusion

My Internal Confusion

I escape my problems. I ignore my fears.

I cover my pain. And don't shed tears.

I don't want to face up. To what I already know.

I have SEEN the ending. Of my reality show.

To me this drug's a doorway. A way to run from it all.

If I re-enter to reality. I know that I will fall.

You should be the one to catch me. But it's not you who's there.

This drug is in your place. And you say I'm unfair.

You gave me the Ultimatum. "It's me or this drug".

And you say these words with nothing more. Than a cold, heartless shrug.

You said I have a choice to make. And you want my answer now.

I want to chose, I really do. But I simply don't know how.

I'm so afraid that I am losing. Every single thing I worked for.

I feel as if the one I love is. Pushing me through that door.

When I reached the point of no return. And Even tried to die.

I said I didn't love you. We both know THAT'S a lie.

I love you more than anything. When you are truly there.

But I hate you even more. When you act like you don't care.

If you love me like you say you do. Then why can't you realize.

I'm not asking you to move mountains. Just simply open up your eyes.

If you could see inside my heart. Then you'de know without a doubt.

I'm not the "Tweaker" you say I am. Meth's NOT what I'm about.

I want to choose you Oh So Bad. Without giving Meth a chance.

I wish I could move on. Without a second glance.

But that isn't even possible. Not with the way things are today.

I feel as if I'm in control. "This drug's not in my way".

I know your not responsible. Meths not your claim to fame.

But through the glass Life's wonderful.

Right then it's not "The Game".

I will always look back and wonder. If I can truly cope.

I know when things get rough. I'll always think of dope.

I want to not have an addiction. I wish I could get clean.

When I want it I feel bad. Cause I think it's you that's mean.

I know I't not just hurting me. When I think about the past.

I know I don't have time to waste. Life comes at you TOO FAST.

I Am Death

I Am Death

Hello new friend, my name is DEATH, some still call me Meth.

I'm easy to find, and a breeze to make.

Just ask around, I will make you feel great.

Try me for free, I can afford one hit.

I know if you do, I am hard to quit.

Forget those who love you, I am all you will need.

Take my hand, to your death I will lead.

I have no conscience, grief is my soul.

I will not leave you, until your body is cold.

You will meet new people, I am social you see.

I'll teach you to lie, steal, and cheat.

Your new group of friends, they know me well.

And if we get caught, they will leave you in hell.

I am important, I am the best.

I make some rich, then I destroy the rest.

I'll keep you awake, unable to work.

I make mothers cry, some call me a jerk.

If you have children, or someone you love.

I can destroy them, I am Meth, the Death Drug.

Don't look in the mirror, you won't believe what you see.

The reflection looking back, some say it is me.

I'll rot your teeth, I'll destroy your gums.

But just remember, you are having fun.

You may not even notice the change.

Your mind will not function as it did before I came.

Once you are mine, and you have lost everything.

Don't curse my name, you came looking for me.

I'm very possesive, I'll take your life.

And if you don't believe me, Keep doing ICE.

Now that you know me, and we are friends.

KNOW I AM DEATH, will you love me to the end?

Mrs Methamphetamine

Mrs. Methamphetamine

Mrs. Methamphetamine.

Oh you are my crystal queen.

You bring me high, You bring me low.

You take me places I'd never go.

You whisper things inside my head.

You never let me go to bed.

I forget the days, I forget the hours.

Life is a raincloud, with no flowers.

You destroy my body, And control my mind.

When you call me, than you I find.

Why can't I beat you Devilish queen,

The addiction too strong, too tough, too mean.

I go without you for days and even weeks.

But you call so often to me, That in your arms I long to be.

But than I hate what it is I do, I'd give anything to be rid of you.

My Meth Daddy

My Meth Daddy

I love my daddy with all my heart.

I only wish this drug he did not start.

I see him dying in front of my eyes.

We may not even have time to say our goodbyes.

My son and daughter he will barely know.

They'll only know him by pictures we'll show.

Slowly but surely we see him weaken.

Some days he seems as if he's been beaten.

With every puff his life slips further away.

God please give him the strength to make another day.

Why won't he just break that glass pipe?

Why did he ever believe the hype?

I want to lock him in a room and throw away the key.

But will that even make him see.

I don't know what to do, I love him so much.

What is this demon that has him in it's clutch.

It is a substance that will bring him to his death.

It is what it is, it is Crystal Meth

Tweaking....

Tweaking

Just one more hit.

Hey I thought you quit.

I gave it a try, but I like the meth high.

I don't face reality or try to deal

And I never worry where I will get my next meal.

I have come to accept this is the life for me.

Put me in jail, I don't like being free.

I don't want to see my family, my kids, or my friends.

Is today the day it will finally all end.

I was doing so good, I was doing so great.

I saw my p.o and I wasn't late.

I went to sleep at night and woke up the next day.

I finally got legitimate pay.

I had a girl I could sit with and just talk.

Until into my mind came a clear little rock.

My new family was laid to rest.

I got a warrant for my dirty drug test.

I moved into a house under surveillance and bugged.

To avoid the thought, I stayed constantly drugged.

A house full of tweaks is not a fun sight.

They are plotting something all day and all night.

What made me go back to my old ways.

I'm seeing shadow people, I haven't slept in days.

I miss how it was, watching movies and eating.

When will I learn to finally stop tweaking.

My Name Is.........METH

my name is meth.........

I destroy homes, I tear families apart,

Take your children, and that's just the start.

I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold,

The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.

If you need me, remember I'm easily found,

I live all around you - in schools and in town

I live with the rich; I live with the poor,

I live down the street, and maybe next door.

I'm made in a lab, but not like you think,

I can be made under the kitchen sink.

In your child's closet, and even in the woods,

If this scares you to death, well it certainly should.

I have many names, but there's one you know best,

I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth.

My power is awesome; try me you'll see,

But if you do, you may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go,

But try me twice, and I'll own your soul.

When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie,

You do what you have to -- just to get high.

The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms

Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms,your lungs your

Nose.

You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad,

When you see their tears, you should feel sad.

But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,

I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.

I take kids from parents, and parents from kids,

I turn people from God, and separate friends.

I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride,

I'll be with you always -- right by your side.

You'll give up everything - your family, your home,

Your friends, your money, then you'll be alone.

I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give,

When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.

If you try me be warned - this is no game,

If given the chance, I'll drive you insane.

I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind,

I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine.

The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,

The voices you'll hear, from inside your head.

The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see,

I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.

But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart,

That you are mine, and we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,

But you came to me, not I to you.

You knew this would happen, many times you were told,

But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.

You could have said no, and just walked away,

If you could live that day over, now what would you say?

I'll be your master, you will be my slave,

I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave.

Now that you have met me, what will you do?

Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.

I can bring you more misery than words can tell,

Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.

L...I...F...E....

Life is an opportunity,benefit from it.

Life is beauty,admire it.

Life is bliss,taste it.

Life is a dream,realize it.

Life is a challenge,meet it.

Life is a duty,omplete it.

Life is a game,play it.

Life is a promise,fulfill it.

Life is sorrow,overcome it.

Life is a song,sing it.

Life is a struggle,accept it.

Life is a tragedy,confront it.

Life is an adventure,dare it.

Life is luck,make it.

Life is too precious,do not destroy it.

Life is life,fight for it.

Mother Teresa

What us bipolar disorder

What is bipolar disorder?

Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks. Symptoms of bipolar disorder are severe. They are different from the normal ups and downs that everyone goes through from time to time. Bipolar disorder symptoms can result in damaged relationships, poor job or school performance, and even suicide. But bipolar disorder can be treated, and people with this illness can lead full and productive lives.

Bipolar disorder often develops in a person's late teens or early adult years. At least half of all cases start before age 25.1 Some people have their first symptoms during childhood, while others may develop symptoms late in life.

Bipolar disorder is not easy to spot when it starts. The symptoms may seem like separate problems, not recognized as parts of a larger problem. Some people suffer for years before they are properly diagnosed and treated. Like diabetes or heart disease, bipolar disorder is a long-term illness that must be carefully managed throughout a person's life.

What are the symptoms of bipolar disorder?

People with bipolar disorder experience unusually intense emotional states that occur in distinct periods called "mood episodes." An overly joyful or overexcited state is called a manic episode, and an extremely sad or hopeless state is called a depressive episode. Sometimes, a mood episode includes symptoms of both mania and depression. This is called a mixed state. People with bipolar disorder also may be explosive and irritable during a mood episode.

Extreme changes in energy, activity, sleep, and behavior go along with these changes in mood. It is possible for someone with bipolar disorder to experience a long-lasting period of unstable moods rather than discrete episodes of depression or mania.

A person may be having an episode of bipolar disorder if he or she has a number of manic or depressive symptoms for most of the day, nearly every day, for at least one or two weeks. Sometimes symptoms are so severe that the person cannot function normally at work, school, or home.

Symptoms of bipolar disorder are described below.---

Symptoms of mania or a manic episode include:---

Mood Changes

A long period of feeling "high," or an overly happy or outgoing mood

Extremely irritable mood, agitation, feeling "jumpy" or "wired."

Behavioral Changes

Talking very fast, jumping from one idea to another, having racing thoughts

Being easily distracted

Increasing goal-directed activities, such as taking on new projects

Being restless

Sleeping little

Having an unrealistic belief in one's abilities

Behaving impulsively and taking part in a lot of pleasurable,

high-risk behaviors, such as spending sprees, impulsive sex, and impulsive business investments.

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Symptoms of depression or a depressive episode include:---

Mood Changes

A long period of feeling worried or empty

Loss of interest in activities once enjoyed, including sex.

Behavioral Changes

Feeling tired or "slowed down"

Having problems concentrating, remembering, and making decisions

Being restless or irritable

Changing eating, sleeping, or other habits

Thinking of death or suicide, or attempting suicide.

When you thought i want looking.

WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WASN'T LOOKING

A message every adult should read

because children are watching you

and doing as you do, not as you say.